An Avatar is not at all bound to be a spiritual prophet — he is never in fact merely a prophet, he is a realiser, an establisher.
At the Feet of The Mother
Sri Aurobindo to Dilip, Vol-2, 1934-1935
All morality is a convention — man cannot live without conventions, mental and moral, otherwise he feels himself lost in the rolling sea of the anarchic forces of the vital Nature.
“O high seeker of immortality,/ Is there not, ineffable, a bliss / Too vast for these finite harmonies, / Too divine for the moment’s unsure kiss?
It seems to me that you identify faith very much with the mental belief — but real faith is something spiritual, a knowledge of the soul.
Nobody has ever said that the spiritual change was an easy thing; all spiritual seekers will say that it is difficult but supremely worth doing.
It is the fact that people who are grateful and cheerful and ready to go step by step,... do actually march faster and more surely than those who are impatient and in haste and at each step despair.
The Divine Grace a power that is superior to any rule, even to the Cosmic Law — for all spiritual seers have distinguished between the Law and Grace.
I have objected in the past to Vairagya of the ascetic kind and the tamasic kind and by the tamasic kind I mean that spirit which comes defeated from life.
I see you have let the demons of self-doubt and doubt in general and melancholy get inside again and sit down at your table.