Letters 1935

When the outer being is so totally obscured how to keep an aspiration?

One can always have an aspiration in the inner being, if the inner being keeps its separateness. This difficulty is due to old habits of the physical mind and vital, which still have the power to repeat themselves by rising from the subconscient ...

Why all this suffering of the physical being on the way to the Divine?

It is the nature of the sadhana. The forces of the Ignorance are a perversion of the earth-nature and the adverse Powers make use of them. They do not give up their control of men without a struggle.

What is the matter with [my present sadhana]? — one after another, attacks are persistently coming. [...]

This negation is the very nature of the physical resistance and the physical resistance is the whole base of the denial of the Divine in the world. [...] You have to face this character of the physical resistance and conquer it however often it may rise. It is the price of the transformation of the earth-consciousness.

It is the nature of the physical mind to be obstinate. Physical nature exists by constant repetition of the same thing [...]. When therefore we want to get rid of the old movements of physical nature, they resist by this kind of obstinate recurrence. One has to be very persistent in rejection to get rid of it.