Since you saw wrong things entering me, why did you not warn me about them?
Here again is the rajasic ego in you, dictating to us what we should have done and showing us our mistakes.
At the Feet of The Mother
Letters to a Young Disciple
Sri Aurobindo’s correspondence with Nagin Doshi from 1933-1937.
"Although there is no ego in the spiritual planes, yet by the spiritual experience the ego on the lower planes may get aggrandised through pride and wrong reception of the experience. Also one may by entering into the larger mental and vital planes aggrandise the ego."
The higher consciousness keeps contact only through my passive self and if I work some part in me feels disturbed.
It is always so with everybody unless one feels the Mother’s Force working through one in the action. It is possible to work through the passive state, provided one feels that one is not doing the work but it is being done through one.
I am still not able to control my speech.... If this defect continues, I am afraid, I shall have to observe mauna [silence].
Mauna is seldom of much use. After it is over, the speech starts again as in the old times. It is in speech itself that the speech must change.
I come to hear many things which disturb me. Should I resolutely avoid them?
Unless you wear cotton wool in your ears or shut yourself in a closed room, you can’t help hearing all sorts of things. You have not to be affected by them or think about them, that is all.
You wrote about the lower forces: “In the working out sometimes they rise, sometimes they disappear.” Cannot the lower forces be worked out easily in their own field without their rising up and disturbing the whole being?
I am not aware of any case in which the lower forces did not rise up. If such a case occurred I fancy it would be the first in human history.
What was there on the head that pressed so powerfully?
The power from above.
Why was it doing so?It must have been to make a fresh opening.
Why am I singled out by the difficulties? Any error on my part?
Everybody has his full share of difficulties, except those who do not mind what difficulties they have. Difficulties come from the old nature trying to rise up — they need not be the result of any error.
