For the last three days I have been noticing this difference. A lack of strength or power in my consciousness to react against the movements of the ordinary nature. What is the matter with me?
It is, I suppose, because the mental control has fallen silent and the new control has not come as yet.
In the absence of the mental control which, as you say, has fallen silent, how am I to carry out my actions?
It is the will of the Purusha that ought to meet the action — will is a silent force put upon the thing to be changed.
Why did my consciousness relax the mental control?
Because you thought you must leave everything to the Mother and not interfere.
Did not the Mother like me to do it?
It may be necessary at a certain stage, but it stops the mental control.
Could you kindly enlighten me a little more about the mental control? Was it really necessary to lose it?
It is perfectly clear. You were using a mental control. When the silence came, the mind stopped its action, so the mental control ceased. It has to be replaced by a spiritual control, the silent Purusha will.
It was probably inevitable owing to the nature of the movements towards passivity, emptiness and silence.
About Savitri | B1C3-11 Towards Unity with God (pp.31-33)